Sometimes the subject for an Un-Blog lands on me like a water balloon, and I am immersed immediately in ideas, words and Spirit. Most of the time, however, I ponder a great deal, searching my soul and the heavens for the brightest inspiration.
Almost eighteen months ago I had been told that I had about six months to live. As I pondered my life then, and what would happen to those I loved after I was gone, I realized that there was so much I had not told my children. Most of my life has been filled with revelation, truth, visions and spiritually powerful events. I have seen the heavens opened, heard the voice of God with my mortal ears, and conversed with angels. Most of it was only known to myself. I had been specifically tasked with saying nothing about these things for decades.
The Spirit wrought upon me with the idea of un-clogging the spiritual drains of my soul, and releasing all of these precious things, not just for my children and wife, but for as many as could benefit. It was a thrilling and also daunting assignment. I didn’t really care if I was criticized for being too personal or too spiritually explicit because I didn’t plan to be around to hear any of it. It was daunting because I didn’t know how I could condense a lifetime of experience into any number of pages in the time I thought remained to me. Nevertheless, the name “UnBlogMySoul” came into my mind, and I knew it was what I should do.
In the year that I have Un-blogged my soul, I have felt pretty fearless. I have felt liberated by the shortness of my life to say anything the Spirit brought to my mind.
I did not consider what might happen, other than creating a written record of my spiritual journey. It didn’t matter much to me who or how many might be interested in what I was writing. I was Un-Blogging my soul because it was the right thing for me to do, not because I was creating an identity, or caring about statistics or comments or criticism.
It was unexpected for the chemo to actually work – it usually doesn’t in advanced cases like mine. My disease will never actually go into remission, but it is controlled at least for this moment. I wasn’t expecting to unblog nearly 400 pages and 180,000 words. I wasn’t expecting to live long enough to do any of these things. I also never considered that I would ever un-blog everything the Holy Spirit would let me – to actually achieve a state of un-bloggedness – to become fully un-blogged. It’s almost inconceivable – like actually writing down every thought you have ever had.
The Spirit has been whispering to me for several months that the purpose of the Un-Blog has been accomplished. I have been pondering what that actually means, and what the Lord is asking me to do now.
I have happily concluded that the Un-Blog is not supposed to end, but rather to aim higher, to be less about me recording my spiritual journey, and more about conquering in this common struggle we all face as Celestial beings in a Telestial world.
I still want the Un-Blog to be 100% positive, uplifting and inspiring, yet more focussed upon OUR journey, instead of mine. I feel like we should begin at the beginning and talk about how to thrive spiritually while fully within the fires that prove and purify us. Your part in this is to add your experiences, your faith, your triumphs and even your trials when they are uplifting. I know that you are very good at this. Together we can Un-Blog OUR Soul.
In this last year I have unexpectedly acquired a spiritual family, the Un-Blog family, with whom I now hope to share a few more years of identifying, seeking and obtaining the great, greater and greatest blessings, and of fearlessly Un-Blogging those things as a witness for all time that the Lord did and does make bare his holy arm in these Latter days, and that His greatest blessings were shared among us.
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