My Journey to Calling and Election
I have decided to share my journey to my calling and election made sure because there is so much misinformation out there. I love my Father in Heaven and Savior more than life itself. I seek to do their will in my life and to contain the natural man. I also wanted to speak about it to let everyone know that they can have this journey too. You do not have to be a leader in the church or an author. You need to have the Holy Spirit as your guide on a daily basis.
This experience happened 15 yrs. ago, but it was a long time in coming through faithful obedience to the Lord and listening to the spirit. Several years before it happened I started seeking to do my Father’s will as perfectly as I was able. I sought out opportunities to listen to the spirit and to bless other people’s lives. I started praying deeply. Many of my prayers became mighty prayer and I felt a deep love for my Savior and Father in Heaven. I started being obedient to the small things in life, more and more I thought constantly about serving the Lord and thinking heavenly thoughts.
I remember one night the spirit woke me up in the middle of the night to pray. It was brought to my attention how my sins had caused the Savior so much suffering. I immediately started to cry and beg for forgiveness. I felt in a small way what He went through. This prayer lasted a couple of hours and at the end of the prayer I knew my sins had been forgiven me. I realized somewhat later that I had been Born Again. I could not believe the blessings which attended this blessing. I was changed like King Benjamin’s people. I did not desire sin. I had a special gift of charity given to me because I prayed a long time to be filled with this love, I loved everyone. I could see their potential for greatness as one of Heavenly Fathers children. This lasted approximately 6 months. Afterwards I was left with equal opposition to the blessings I received and started to struggle again. I could not believe how far I could sink after the glorious blessings that had been given me. The adversary is real and active in our lives.
I struggled about another 6 months to resumed my diligent obedience and heartfelt repentance. I once again felt the blessings of my Heavenly Father upon me. I started having great faith in the promises given to the faithful. I want to say that I am just a normal person with appetites and passions that I continually have to control. As you get further down the path and the joy of obedience comes upon you, your faith becomes knowledge as things are revealed to you. I was instructed to look at the lectures on faith and other specific scriptures and writings. I began to understand what it took to have your calling and election made sure and I was very willing to pay whatever price it took.
During this period of time in my life I saw many things of the spirit. I witnessed the adversary’s armies marching to destroy the souls of men. I felt the spirit so strong that it shook me to the very core. One evening late at night I was praying in my front room and the spirit distilled upon me. I was asked if I was willing to give everything even my life to the Lord. This was not just a cursory question but I knew it was a very serious question to me. I felt as if my life might be taken at that time. I searched my heart and told him whatever is required of me I will do. At that point I would have done anything He asked. I also knew at this time that the spirit searched my heart and soul and knew what I said was true. The Lord then said “ It is enough, You have a crown of righteousness laid up in heaven for you.” I understood very powerfully that this meant my calling and election was made sure. He said many other things to me that night which I treasure with all of my heart.
The next night I was lying in bed and my wife asked me “why are you so wonderful recently?” I laughed but I could not tell her what had happened the night before. When you have that kind of experience the spirit seems to restrain you from talking about it, even though you are anxious to bless people’s lives with your new knowledge, especially those closest to you. You pray continually to do the Father’s will. I have told only two people about this event because the Spirit has restrained me. I think the reason the Lord has allowed me to share this anonymously with the Un Blog family is because it is important for everyone to believe it is possible for anyone to have this blessing given. I am of the opinion that if I can seek and obtain these things, then it is available to the “least of the saints” because I am one of them. I know it happens in different ways to different people. There is not one “right way.”
Since that time I have been up and down spiritually though the blessings have remained with me, and I think about it continually. The natural man is so powerful in our lives. We constantly have to rebuke it and take the spirit to be our guide.
I want to close with my testimony. Arriving at this experience has been the hardest and yet the most rewarding thing I have ever done. I am so grateful to a wonderful Father in Heaven that so loves his children. He wants all of us to follow his only Begotten Son and listen to the whisperings of the spirit. It is all true. I have a sure witness of the Godhead, they live and love us. I have seen many heavenly things since then. The spirit that came with calling and election can never be denied.
This path that we are on is an incredible journey. May we all continue and be faithful to the end.
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© April 2012, John M. Pontius, all rights reserved. Non-commercial reproduction permitted.