You had mentioned that you suffer with health problems. I can relate to that in some degree, although my suffering is in mind rather than body. Ever since I was young, my mind hasn’t processed thought patterns as it should. On my mission I was diagnosed with some major chemicle imbalances and was sent home. I haven’t found any medication that seems to help.
Sometimes it gets so bad that I feel like I’m in a dream state. My mind gets really cloudy and I can’t hear the voice of the Spirit. The harder I try to focus the worse it gets. Feelings of panic, depression, lonliness, and of being forsaken come over me often.
I want so much to be able to recognize and follow the voice of Christ. I am wondering if maybe you were given any understanding of people who suffer like me. It is such a lonely feeling. I want to be a true disciple of Christ and follow Him in all things forever. I pray the day will come that His voice comes to me with clarity.